This year seems to have been all about stepping out in FAITH! Faith in all areas in our Lord. Trusting Him to catch us if we fall. Faith that led us to step out and begin homeschooling our three kids. Faith to branch out in how I teach my Sunday school class at Three Forks. Faith to make a new commitment in our Women of Worth ladies program. Faith has always been such a big part of our lives. Now it is leading me once more. I am about to leap off a big cliff, all the while praying, “Lord let me fall where you need me.” “Here am I, send me.” Isaiah 6:8
No one is a big fan of stepping outside their comfort zone. The fear of rejection and pain is too much. The dread of the “what if….”. The horrible worry of failing keeps many, including myself, from beginning, from taking the step. We fail before we ever start.
Not anymore! A desire of mine for many, many years has been to be a ladies day speaker. I have been so wonderfully influenced by speakers I have heard through my life, I wanted to do that. I wanted to have the strength and ability to share my faith with others the way those brave women stood in front of crowds of women and shared theirs.
For over 10 years I have been a teacher at church. Even in my early teens at our small congregation I had to step up and teach the younger children simply because there was no one else to fill that role. (Congregation size was about 20 on Sunday mornings, 5 of which were my family.) I have taught all ages and have taught our women’s bible studies each month for many years. Each time I prepare and give a lesson, I strive to be better. I try to teach it as well as I can and improve on past flaws. I seek constructive criticism, I want to grow. I cherish the experience each class, each lesson, each opportunity has given me to grow closer to God and share His word with others in the process.
I worry, maybe I am not the right person. No one would really care what I have to say, would they? What if I can’t control my nerves? What if I turn out to not be cut out for it? What if I fail miserably and embarrass myself, and worse yet, what if I fail my Lord? I, I, I, me, me, me! There is the problem!!! It isn’t about me, never has been, never will be! It is about The God of Heaven who gave up everything to come here and die! IT IS About JESUS!
Every focus of our family is about Him. Living for Him, raising our children to learn of Him. What kind of example am I setting if I am not placing my trust fully in His help and His strength to keep me on my feet. He is the help I need!
“Our help is in the name of the Lord,
Who made heaven and earth.”
He is where our strength comes from. Phil. 4:13. So I am going to take that leap. I can’t see the bottom, don’t know where I will land, but I know who is there Faithfully to catch me and He never fails! He will never drop me! I am putting my name out there saying, yes, I will be a ladies day speaker if anyone would be interested in hearing what I have to say. I will have faith in my Lord and trust His hand to lead me where He may. I will continue to pray for His help and guidance every day and hope I am leading my children by example.