Everyone who knows me will agree on one BIG truth: I am loud! There is no denying it! It is just part of who I am. I come from a loud family. I have always been loud. I am loud when I talk, when I laugh, when I sing, and probably even when I sleep. A sweet Christian sister once tried to make it sound nicer by explaining that my voice just carries well. All of this, while true, is something I often take for granted. Being one that is easily heard is something I do not think of through a typical day.
The ability to speak, to make myself known and express my ideas is something I do not typically have to worry about, at all! However this weekend, for whatever reason, I have lost my voice. I now realize how hard it is for this loud momma to be without that method of communication. To have something that is such a part of my person be taken away, even temporarily, is difficult!
When mommy can’t talk mommy can’t give instruction, extremely difficult problem for a homeschool mom! (It is very hard to give a spelling test when you sound like a cross between Mickey Mouse and Donald Duck.) Mom can’t call from one room to another to get her family’s attention. Mom can’t discipline like normal. Mommy can’t sing her babies to sleep. When my voice failed, I realized how much I really need to be heard!
One thing I love to do is sing. My favorite part of worship to God is through song and currently that is not an option. When anything above a whisper brings pain, it is hard to belt out the notes to any song. Visiting a local congregation for their gospel meeting last night I tried so hard to join in worship to my Lord, but strain as I might, it was not happening. I continued to sing in my heart, but I was not able to sing with my voice.
I believe God in all His wisdom and glory understands moments like this, and how difficult it is to be stripped of what we consider normal communication. When giving instruction to the New Testament Christians concerning worship, Paul wrote “speaking to one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing and making melody in your heart to the Lord,” (Ephesians 5:19). God desires us to sing His praises, yet He also made accommodations for when that isn’t an option. Last night I was singing and making melody in my heart to Him. No one else in the building may have heard the words, but I know and trust God heard them loud and clear!
God doesn’t exclude those without a voice. These past few days one verse in particular has come to my mind many times.
“Let everything that has breath praise the Lord. Praise the Lord!” Psalm 150:6
God ensures that no living person will be excluded with that statement. As long as there is breath in us, in me, let us always give praise to God in our hearts and in our lives! Let us praise Him out loud or so quiet that only He can hear!
I wish everyone a blessed day!